So this week started off pretty interesting. It started out pretty hectic and I was truly hyperventilating but things are starting to calm down. Slowly I'm getting my thoughts and emotions and life in general in somewhat of an order. A lot of things have happened today some good some bad.
I have received three job interviews. One for Buckle at the Cross Creek Mall. I'm not too excited about that one. I wouldn't mind working weekends and getting the 40% discount but there is no way I'm driving over an hour from Pembroke to Fayetteville during the week to work. The next two job interviews are at my school. One is to be a Technician at our Performing Arts Center. The other is to be a BraveTech in our Information Technology department. I'm shooting more for the BraveTech position since that's centered more towards my degree. Either is fine with me though. Operating hours for both are between 8-5 Monday through Friday and they are right at my school so no need for traveling far between school and work. I could even work in between classes. I really hope I get one of those jobs.
Some more good news is that today I finally signed my medical waiver for ROTC. It shouldn't be much longer before I get contracted and hopefully I can still get the Airborne slot. Time is cutting close though. The school starts a month from Friday so they could've already selected someone to send without my knowledge. I'll have to check on that tomorrow.
Bad news...I've been procrastinating. Yes, I'm getting my assignments done on time but I'm waiting until the last minute. If I do, by miracle, get a chance to go to Airborne school, I'm going to have to be way ahead on my assignments. I have a homework assignment due this Friday, two quizzes, and an essay due next Tuesday. I definitely gotta get ahead so I'm not drowning later. The other bad news is that my student that I started tutoring last week bailed on me. Apparently I wasn't good enough for her. It kind of hurt me because I think I do a pretty good job of explaining things but she was an older student who looked like she was just coming back to school after several years out of school. And jumping right into Calculus is not really the best choice in that kind of situation. But who am I to judge? She ended up getting matched up with the Math tutor guru whose been tutoring for over 8 years so I hope she gets the help she needs from that tutor. For now, I'm in limbo with no student to tutor until I get called upon...meaning jobless once again. =/ But even though I'm not getting paid to tutor, I'm volunteering my "tutoring" skills at home. My neighbor is studying to retake the ASVAB and he asked me for help in the math sections. I'm also helping my husband learn how to write essays for his Expository Writing class. So all in all, I do feel like I'm being helpful even though I'm not being paid for it. And to me...you can't put a price helping someone understand how to do things on their own. That satisfaction is the best form of payment I can get.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Helpful and sometimes not so helpful
I have a job finally. It doesn't pay much and I only work two hours a week but it's a start for now. I'm a tutor...for Calculus. I've never been a professional tutor before. I have volunteered my time to classmates whenever asked but other than that I have no set skills in helping someone learn. Today was my first day. I can't say I did very well though. The student seemed just as confused at the end of our session as she did at the beginning of it. It was only a one hour session though and my first day working with her. I'm going to have to find better ways to communicate the information to her so that she can better understand. I guess I was forgetting my reasoning for being there which is to better explain the things being taught in class...not to just repeat what was taught at the very same speed of the professor who is teaching the subject. Another thing is that the subject is math. Yes...I'm good at math but math is tricky for me at times so even I get the wrong answer sometimes and have to retrace my steps. I don't want to seem like I'm tutoring a subject I know nothing of. It definitely is different trying to slow down my pace of learning and thinking to teach but I'm sure I'll get the hang of this soon enough.
It really does bother me when I can't help someone in the way they need help. Whether it be a student seeking help in a class or a friend seeking emotional consolation. It's like being inside a glass box and there is no way to get out to the person that needs help. You can see their pain, confusion, distress...but your hands are bound. It truly causes a discomfort for me because all I want to do is to reassure and soothe whatever it is that is causing so much anguish. I have a friend who is going through a lot right now and I feel utterly helpless in the situation. I wish I could do more as a friend who cares deeply but even I have limits to who and how I can help. All I can do now is pray that better days will come for them and that one day that emptiness is filled with something greater than ever imagined.
It really does bother me when I can't help someone in the way they need help. Whether it be a student seeking help in a class or a friend seeking emotional consolation. It's like being inside a glass box and there is no way to get out to the person that needs help. You can see their pain, confusion, distress...but your hands are bound. It truly causes a discomfort for me because all I want to do is to reassure and soothe whatever it is that is causing so much anguish. I have a friend who is going through a lot right now and I feel utterly helpless in the situation. I wish I could do more as a friend who cares deeply but even I have limits to who and how I can help. All I can do now is pray that better days will come for them and that one day that emptiness is filled with something greater than ever imagined.
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Good news!!! And a great message...
I'm mid-week through the first week of this semester and things are going great. I'm enjoying all my classes and I had my first day back to PT yesterday. I won't lie...I am a little sore lol. We did a bunch of cross-fit type workouts. No word yet on my contract. We are sending up an appeal on DODMERB decision. Some good news to look forward to is that I might have a chance to go to Airborne School next month. If my contract goes through as planned than I will most definitely be going. I'm so excited and scared at the same time. My husband and all my friends are happy that I will be joining the "cool" club haha. The great thing is that my professors have already approved of my absence in class (I didn't waste time lol) so if all works out in my favor I will be a paratrooper come the end of March. =) My older sister asked my why in the world would I want to jump out of a perfectly good airplane?!? I asked her, how many people do you know that are crazy enough to jump out of one? Haha...we'll now she'll know two! (Me and my husband =P)
On another note, I saw this today and thought I would share. It sparked my interest because in my Religion class, we have been posed with the question, "What is religion?". Well it's too early in the semester to give my scholarly opinion on the matter but if I were to put my "believer's hat" on, I would agree with this guy and how he thinks. Enjoy and have a great rest of the week!
On another note, I saw this today and thought I would share. It sparked my interest because in my Religion class, we have been posed with the question, "What is religion?". Well it's too early in the semester to give my scholarly opinion on the matter but if I were to put my "believer's hat" on, I would agree with this guy and how he thinks. Enjoy and have a great rest of the week!
Friday, January 6, 2012
Proud Godmother
I've been sicker than a dog lately. Even the Dayquil and Nyquil aren't helping. I'm taking a different route this morning...sipping my Theraflu lemon tea as I blog today. Hopefully I feel a little better this afternoon. I've been having a hard time being productive outside the house since the new year has begun. I can't really workout like I want to. I tried a few days ago running...I was only able to do a mile in that 20 degree weather and since that run my cough has only gotten worse. I would go to a gym but it's 30 minutes to the gyms I have access to. And with being sick I have no motivation to leave my house really. Today I got up at 8 thinking I was going to head out to Pembroke, work out in the gym, and drop my resume off at the few banks and credit unions they have out there. I even printed my resume out and everything and had an outfit picked out. Now all I want to do is stay in my pjs.
On another note, I have been very productive INSIDE my house lol. I reorganized my garage and unpacked four more boxes. One step closer to being officially "moved in". Yes I moved here in April but they say you aren't officially moved in until you unpack that last box lol. Ok so I might have gotten that off of a Disney movie so what. =) I also did all the laundry, folded, and put them away. I organized my dining room, the man cave, and the living room. Even with all that there is still plenty to do though...clean the kitchen, the bathrooms, there's some more laundry to be done now, and I could tidy up my room a bit. Maybe I won't be leaving the house today. Once school starts, it will be more difficult to keep up with the house work so I might as well give myself a head start so that it will be easier on me when school starts up on Monday. I'm excited to go back to school. When school let out in December, I was dreading the break, thinking it was going to drag. But it actually didn't...maybe it was the trip to Philly and NY that helped the time fly. It's Friday now and in only a few days I'll be back at my routine again.
Oh one more thing happened this week that I'm so happy about and couldn't be more honored. A dear friend of mine, whom I've shared tears and sorrows, laughs and joy with, has asked me to the the Godmother of her son. I was overjoyed when she asked me. I definitely didn't expect it but she made my day with that news. So I am proud to say I am a Godmother to a beautiful two year old whom I loved since the day he was born. I still remember the first time I met him face to face in Germany in 2010. He's such a bright and excited little man and I am honored to be able to watch and help him grow into the handsome gentleman he is going to be one day.
Cheers to 2012 and all the wonderful and exciting things to happen this year. Happy Three Kings day!
On another note, I have been very productive INSIDE my house lol. I reorganized my garage and unpacked four more boxes. One step closer to being officially "moved in". Yes I moved here in April but they say you aren't officially moved in until you unpack that last box lol. Ok so I might have gotten that off of a Disney movie so what. =) I also did all the laundry, folded, and put them away. I organized my dining room, the man cave, and the living room. Even with all that there is still plenty to do though...clean the kitchen, the bathrooms, there's some more laundry to be done now, and I could tidy up my room a bit. Maybe I won't be leaving the house today. Once school starts, it will be more difficult to keep up with the house work so I might as well give myself a head start so that it will be easier on me when school starts up on Monday. I'm excited to go back to school. When school let out in December, I was dreading the break, thinking it was going to drag. But it actually didn't...maybe it was the trip to Philly and NY that helped the time fly. It's Friday now and in only a few days I'll be back at my routine again.
Oh one more thing happened this week that I'm so happy about and couldn't be more honored. A dear friend of mine, whom I've shared tears and sorrows, laughs and joy with, has asked me to the the Godmother of her son. I was overjoyed when she asked me. I definitely didn't expect it but she made my day with that news. So I am proud to say I am a Godmother to a beautiful two year old whom I loved since the day he was born. I still remember the first time I met him face to face in Germany in 2010. He's such a bright and excited little man and I am honored to be able to watch and help him grow into the handsome gentleman he is going to be one day.
Cheers to 2012 and all the wonderful and exciting things to happen this year. Happy Three Kings day!
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| Handsome Jamari <3 |
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Entering into the New Year
I've been at a loss for words lately. Much has happened during this winter break...goods and bads. It was really great to meet a side of my husband's family that I've never met before. It was definitely much needed for the both of us and I know it meant a lot for him to be able to spend the holidays with them after so many years away. I got to meet my mother-in-law's husband's side of the family as well. There are ancient in their ways of living lol. But they are all still very fun people to be around. I did miss my family terribly though. Especially during Christmas. I think I cried about four or five times between Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. But I sucked it up...I can't be so greedy all the time. Although, having my dad read my Christmas message to the family on Christmas Eve meant the world to me. I'm glad I could have a little part of me with them that night.
So on to my bad news...this past semester I trained and worked hard on getting my scholarship/contract with the Army. I had to jump through many hoops to get where I am...between PT tests, FTX weekends, getting good grades in my classes, and medical exams...it's a circus really. I passed with flying colors expect the one thing I had no control over...my medical exam. Yep...I received my disqualification letter. This made my heart drop...and yes I did shed a few tears of frustration. I couldn't believe they could disqualify me over something so little as having a history of psoriasis. It doesn't effect my ability to train or work hard but yet it's an automatic disqualification. This really could be the end of my military career if I can't get a medical waiver. I can only hope and pray that Cadet Command will approve my waiver. Since the Army is cutting down on troops, they are weeding out people for the smallest things.
I will be able to continue in the program this semester so long as my waiver is still pending. So my resolution for this year is to continue to work hard and prove that I deserve to be in this program despite my medical circumstances however small they may be. I have other resolutions as well including getting straight As again this year, growing closer to my husband, and saving up for a nice vacation for the summer.
I hope everyone entered into the New Year with a bang. My best advice is to hit the ground running as we start a new beginning. It's weird how New Years always seems to set a restart button on our lives. Most people look at it as a way to make up for mistakes from the last year or to start a completely new path from the last. I'm not sure which one I'm doing yet....making up for past mistakes or starting a new path. All I do know is that I've made up my mind to keep positive and make the best of everyday that passes me by.
So on to my bad news...this past semester I trained and worked hard on getting my scholarship/contract with the Army. I had to jump through many hoops to get where I am...between PT tests, FTX weekends, getting good grades in my classes, and medical exams...it's a circus really. I passed with flying colors expect the one thing I had no control over...my medical exam. Yep...I received my disqualification letter. This made my heart drop...and yes I did shed a few tears of frustration. I couldn't believe they could disqualify me over something so little as having a history of psoriasis. It doesn't effect my ability to train or work hard but yet it's an automatic disqualification. This really could be the end of my military career if I can't get a medical waiver. I can only hope and pray that Cadet Command will approve my waiver. Since the Army is cutting down on troops, they are weeding out people for the smallest things.
I will be able to continue in the program this semester so long as my waiver is still pending. So my resolution for this year is to continue to work hard and prove that I deserve to be in this program despite my medical circumstances however small they may be. I have other resolutions as well including getting straight As again this year, growing closer to my husband, and saving up for a nice vacation for the summer.
I hope everyone entered into the New Year with a bang. My best advice is to hit the ground running as we start a new beginning. It's weird how New Years always seems to set a restart button on our lives. Most people look at it as a way to make up for mistakes from the last year or to start a completely new path from the last. I'm not sure which one I'm doing yet....making up for past mistakes or starting a new path. All I do know is that I've made up my mind to keep positive and make the best of everyday that passes me by.
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