Motivational Push

So today I've been re-evaluating my life...where I've been, where I'm at, where I want to be....that sort of stuff.  I have a set goal in mind, a strong dedication to that goal, but sometimes my motivation tends to lack.  Even though my routine is still going great....school is better than ever...I'm doing fantastic in ROTC...it's all rolling perfectly fine but sometimes I feel so late in the game.  I feel like I should already have my bachelor's degree and that I should be working a full time job being a "real" adult you could say.  Don't get me wrong, I know plenty of adults in my classes who are getting their degree for the first time but many of them have lived a good...maybe hard...but good life with maybe kids and/or a spouse.

I live a good life with my husband.  We have no kids though...nothing to really tie us down so school is a good option right now...but we can't really do all the things we want to since money is tight because of me only working part time and paying for tuition suckssss.

So with that being said...sometimes I feel like I'll be over exhausted before I get to my goal....

And other times....I feel like my goal is still so far away....

And a lot of times...I feel like I spent a good part of my life like this...

And so I stress myself out because all I wanna be is here...

Can I get an amen people?  Am I the only that feels like this? lol  Ughhhh...that's life right!

So I've been looking for ways to motivate myself....my family, my husband, my close friends.
It get's hard but I know that I can get there.  I have a great support system.  It's me that I have to keep convincing that time is going to fly and before I know it, all my dreams will happen.  In the mean time...I should post a few of these all around me house!

Mind > Money

So my job search has evidently been a fail for the last couple of months...but to be honest I haven't really been looking.  =/
I'm afraid of picking up a full time job and not being able to stay in school full time aaand do the ROTC program.  So I have been holding off on applying to jobs.  I have applied at some places that I think might be flexible full time jobs but no responses back (to my luck really).  I'm glad that I was able to qualify for unemployment for a little while because my relocation to North Carolina wasn't of my choosing exactly but it doesn't last forever of course.  Finding a part-time job is what I'll have to look for and even though I don't really want my weekends to be taken away from me, the weekends are the only times really available and flexible for me.  So I've decided to venture out into the retail world for the first time.  I'm starting to apply for different stores at the mall that I might enjoy working at...folding clothes what a joy right?  Lol  I just put in an application to Buckle.  I really really like that store a lot and it's not a store that gets very packed or has clothes thrown everywhere since the clothes there are pretty expensive.

I'm also going to try applying at all the sneaker stores in the mall.  I mean I couldn't be a more exquisite candidate for a sneaker store...I am a die hard sneaker head to say the least lol.  It's not like my collection says much right???? 

My collection as of April 2011

Now I really really don't want to work retail.  Banking and IT has always been my thing.  There is actually a perfect job that I qualify 100% for and it's two minutes from my house and the pay is almost equivalent to my last job in Orlando  BUT it's a full time day job...and I just can't risk my long term goal for short term money.  =/

Wish me luck in my retail ventures!  =$